My Gift (My Favorite)

Before I was born
Before I was conceived
God told me
He was something for me
I asked him what
I asked him how
I done nothing for you
Why now
He told me clear
Plain as day
You are my child
I love you always
I know what's best
And this gift is for you
After this
It's all up to you
I said wow
This is great
I wonder what
I can't wait
God said soon
You will see
Once you do
You'll know it's from me
So then I was born
And then I grew up
No gift from Him
But I never gave up
Then one day
Upon my view
A pretty young thing
I saw you
I couldn't believe
This was rare
But God's gift for me
Was standing right there.

Only THE Place

The trees
So green
With brown
So long
It tickles the clear blue sky
Which makes the sun smile down
Down on me
By the lake
That sparkles
So clear
One fish
Two fish
Hear that
Wind says shhh
As it blows around
Weave in and out of the trees
Which makes the leaves clap
In joy of such a beautiful day
Beautiful scene
A beautiful me
Who is watching all this
Hearing all this
Birds churp
They sing their song
I do not understand
But it blends so well
Can such a place be real
With trees sotall
So green
With brown
Lake so clear
With one fish two
With sky so blue
And sun who smiles
Can such a place ne true.

Flash Backs

I saw it once more and never again
It went by so fast, just barely began
One when I was six
That's when I got my first kiss
Valentines day in elementry school
Yeah that was cool
Right on the cheek
I was young, just wanted to weep
Then I was ten
I was chillin with my bstest best friend
Then he got shot
Stray bullet from a cop
That was a depressing time
But I got through it just fine
Now I'm thirteen
I was hanging out at a party
Can't believe what I was seeing
A guy who stopped my breathing
I knew right then what had to be done
There went boyfriend number one
And here's when I was eighteen
Graduating from high school was a proud thing
Graduating secon highest in class
You know tha after party was a blast
Here's when I'm twenty-three
With boyfried number three
I barely remember this day
Cause this is when I hade Jade
Six pounds three ounce baby girl
This was the beest day in the world
When I go sobered up enough for me
My boyfriend wen down on one knnee
Months later wearing a very little blue dress
I walked down the aisles with joy that can't be explained
As I lay down in the pool of liquid around me
I smile my last smile and thank God that He has blessed thee.

L+O+V+E= You

Did the math in my head
Done the equations and it said
you with me is a guarantee
Me without you is like a dead tree
Add our days we shared together
And subtract the seperate days forever
Multiply fat kid loves cake by two
And you will get how much I love you.

A Whole Day

Ever since I found you
My life has been healed too
I'd prayed to the stars and heavens above
To find someone for me to love
And here you are inmy world
You make my days all a whirl
Your the reason my mornings are all so anxious
Cause first site of you are always so wonderous
My afternoons are glazed with joy
Cause everyday your like my new shiny toy
Evenings are the hardest
Cause we have to be parted
But when I close my eyes at night
I know that everything will be alright
Cause when the day starts to begin
I know my life will start all over again.

On Patrol

I'm walking the streets
Taking a stroll
Cause my mission was to be
To go on patrol
My battle buddies to left
My battle buddies to my right
Cruising along
Watching every sight
And as I stroll
A shot pops off
And then I hear
Someone hit the rocks
I turn to my right
I turn to my left
Someone jumped me from behind
And I lost my step
I stuggled at first
Then I grad my knife
Slashed him in the face
I took his life
With a shank between the ribs
And all the howling cries and blood
I knew I won the fight
Cause he fell on me with a thud
I push the lifeless body off
And set to attack again
But no more enemies around
Just my dead friend.

Mixed Emotions

I hate you
You know I do
With the stupid things
And crazy ways
You drive me there
Talk shit
That's fair
I got you
In the end
Your voice
It echoes
It makes me insane
I detest how its stuck
Molded
Engraved
In my head
Bull shit
How your face
Always on my mind
In a crowd
Your not hard yo find
Cause your there
And I'm here
And the world won't stop
For you
Or for me
No
Yes
I don't know
But I do know
How much I say
I hate you
Cause my love for you
Increases
Inflates
Skyrockets
And it pisses me off
Caue your physical being
Isn't here for me
Don't you see
How much you mean to thee
What shall thy heart become
If such love did not coverth me
What shall thy heart be
If may not I allow such a wonder
To engulf my life complete
May the earth hold us firm
And the air tie our breathes together
Let the water in our bodies flow the same
And the fire of passion burn between us
And at last
Have our spirits dance the fields of glory for happy days
Cause a thousand knives are in my heart
Stuck like a person in quick sand
From previous lives in past
And yet you hold your knife
So big with might
Greater than the rest
The swordsman best
Yours can kill me
Mentally
Not yet physically
But still
A force beyond recognition
You may not know
Cause I will not show
How much control you have
Over me
My actions
My heart and mind
Too strong for me to fight
It depletes all my might
No doubt everyone knows
How much I hate you so
Cause my heart is in love
And that flows like a flood.

Family Ties

I married my brother
Who I love so very much
Who was engaged to my sister
Who was stabbed in the back my uncle

He went to jail for adultry and rape
And left my aunt with Sally Mae and Ray

Now my aunt is married to my dad
Who doesn't mind loving his sister
Cause she deserves better than his jail-burg bro

The twist in my family
Not one but two of us are not related
Cause my aunt and uncle
Was adopted by grandma Tonk

The moral of the story
Is to check your family tree
Cause you never know
You may have a Ray
Impersonating as a cousin of your very own.

Remember the First Kiss

A day for all times
A day to remember
A crazy night
That made my blood all simmered

We were friends before
Tight as can be
Don't know what happened
It was all too fast for me

On the phone we talked
Joking and laughing
Just being ourselves
That we know oh too well

Then something changed
And I knew it would come
Cause you knew in my head
I like this one

Let the questions begin
When did I fall
But can you answer me this
Do you like me at all

If I held my breath
I would have died
Cause the pause after that
Just made me want to cry

But what I heard next
Was a big surprise
Cause knocking on my window
Was you before my eyes

What went through my head
Was shock then anger
Cause this was my grandma's house
And we have gang bangers

So I go outside
Trying to stay pissed
But the atmosphere out there
Was not hard to miss

We sat in the trunk
Of my Ford Explorer
Just like always
Just being retards

And then came the change
Again the presents was clear
Cause real low you said
" I like you too" in my ear

How dumb was I
Should have swallowed my pride
Tried to play hard to get
But you saw throuh my lie

I tried t do my thing
You tried to play your game
But at the end of the night
We both wanted the same

With curiousity in your voice
And want on your lips
You leaned into me
And asked for a kiss

Before I said anything
Before I even thought
I moved into you
And found what I sought

First kiss was a bust
My apologies, my fault
Had little skill in that field
But I was willing to be taught

But the seond was a winner
Cause I loved every minute
And from what happened next
You too also loved it

I did not want
Anything more
But to stay with you
And just let my heart soar

That night was a fairytale
So grand, so true
Cause that night at grandma's house
I fell in love with you.